Still breathing. Not dead. Still.

Still breathing. Not dead.

Did I disappoint you with the checklist in my head?

Still breathing. Not dead.

Wake up. Think it. Blink it into life.

Still breathing. Not dead.

The pain has gone. It went with love and tears.

Years have washed it silent.

The trees whisper questioning – still breathing? Not dead?

It’s my fault.

It’s my default. 

If I hadn’t…..if I hadn’t…if I hadn’t ….then you wouldn’t….have.

Stil breathing. Not dead.

I need a number 3 to this list of freedom for this caged bird.

But what else is there in life?

I breathe. I live. I breathe. I live.

Make it stop.

Alice Smith 2019

Written and filmed weeks after repossession suffering from PTSD. Still breathing? Not dead? If you can answer yes to both questions, you are a survivor. Join us at Life Support – uk national survivor network http://www.goddesse.co.uk

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