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Get lost!

Get lost in Wonderland. Get lost in long grass so green against the blue sky and listen as it grows. Get lost in the cold cold sea through the waves to the rocks , every wave so different from the last.  Get lost in the miles of sand, the dunes full of prickly excitement andContinue reading “Get lost!”

Friday flowers

On Friday she got flowers. Friday’s child, Friday’s flowers, All the other hours of all the other days of all the other weeks of all the other years she got.. Broken eggs and burnt matches, Overdrafts and silence, Hidden keys and a punch in the neck, Lies and perfume, No shows and an empty chair,Continue reading “Friday flowers”

All mine

Girl now you made it All your successes are yours alone All your losses are yours alone Inside you what was empty is now full of life, Your shadow no longer crying to eclipse the light, All mixed together by a child’s fingers. Good girl, bad girl, girl…. Now you made it. You made itContinue reading “All mine”

Mind vomit

Sipping my life from bottles, Bottling my tears, Drowning your fears. Simply sipping and sipping and slipping then drinking then gulping and….. Up it comes… Too much life trapped in too many bottles, Too many tears stoppered, Not Enough To drown my fears Only sitting and sipping….never thinking Just gulping and drinking..never thinking and UpContinue reading “Mind vomit”

Twilight sleep

In part 11 Alice finds some scribbles written whilst high on state induced morphine in the hospital bed series’Connecting to the mother keyboard.’ She has no recollection of writing it. Purple hazed memory blocker. We are but we are not. It happened and it did not. Holding two truths in the drained purpled half light,Continue reading “Twilight sleep”

Choose not to matter

In part 10 Alice asks are you choosing not to matter with or without your marriage and your mortgage? Choose (single) Life Choose the NHS Choose you -no one else will Choose not to matter. Choose a waiting list Choose your mortgage Choose a carrier bag of cider Choose not to matter. Choose him forContinue reading “Choose not to matter”

Kicked it

In part 9 from a series of blogs from the hospital bed ‘Connecting to the mother keyboard’,Alice realises some people just don’t care. I’m not on your mind but I’m on my mind. It’s an easy mistake to make. It’s a maze with no followers. It’s a rabbit hole I have to shrink before IContinue reading “Kicked it”

Sweet shop

In part 7 of her series from the hospital bed Alice asks – what’s your pill? What’s your pill? Is it sweet? Is it bitter? Stout? Or mild? Drink as a child, Mum.gives you the willing glass, Dad pours it with a knowing wink. Pause. They both helped you not to think. Does cocaine turnContinue reading “Sweet shop”

Are you a grafter?

In part 3 of her blog series from the hospital bed ‘Connecting to the mother keyboard‘ Alice Smith wonders – Does God really love a trier? Try harder myth number 1. Try harder. Having been evicted from the teaching profession in 2015 – school teaching now officially being a Try Harder profession – I earnestlyContinue reading “Are you a grafter?”