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Bed post

‘All of your battles will show you who you are.’ Maybe. But they are more likely to show you who other people are…. In Part 2 of ‘Connecting to the mother keyboard‘ Alice Smith explores 2022 friendships Hospital and convalescence is the best place to contemplate your life – your success, your failures, any regretsContinue reading “Bed post”

Dear Mr Blue ….

Dear society, does my pain offend you? Draw curtain. Open mouth. Insert highly toxic morphine. Shut up. Where am I again? Mmmmmm…….make mine a double shot…… Alice Smith writes about pain in part 1 of a series from the hospital bed ‘Connecting to mother keyboard.‘ Society encourages us to medicate whenever we feel pain. NowhereContinue reading “Dear Mr Blue ….”

1826 no’s

1826 No’s Alice Smith on 5 years sober 5, 4, 3, 2, 1. 5 years sober. 1826 days. 1826 ways to say no. 1826 no’s to parties, invites, sex with strangers, ‘just one.’ 1826 no’s to family pressure, wearing that, saying this, climbing on tables, falling off tables. 1826 no’s to car parks at 3am,Continue reading “1826 no’s”

Find the key

All abuse relationships are a trade. A poor trade, an unfair trade but still – a trade. Looking at abusive relationships in this way frees us from both the victim and the survivor labels – but it’s controversial. Why? Because blame is always lurking at the door if we consider these relationships in the lightContinue reading “Find the key”

It felt safe until it didn’t

Post lockdown, there is now no collective grief. Post lockdown, there is now no mourning for what we lost. Post lockdown, there is now only chaos and rush and busy. In the West this looks like this – Ignoring the death of old structures. Been in a hospital lately? Tried to get a GP appointment?Continue reading “It felt safe until it didn’t”

Sobriety is a good electrician

‘Doing the work’ in sobriety doesn’t always improve our present but it does reframe our past. It builds a better future self (not slimmer, richer or with 10k followers no – more aligned to our core values.) Doing the work is futuring. It’s Beyond. Horizons arealways moving in sobriety. But instead of Boris moving theContinue reading “Sobriety is a good electrician”

Lazarus

Have you ever wondered how Lazarus got on with his life after the story ends? You know the story, right? Lazarus has died. It was ‘his time. Jesus had other ideas. After 3 days of mourning, he rolls back the stone and out he comes – ta dah! Jesus moves off and we never findContinue reading “Lazarus”

I want love

I’ve lived my life saying ‘I want love’ and I’ve always believed that I needed it. Now. After 2 divorces, am I missing something? And what sort of love do I need? There’s a great scene in Rocket Man (Elton John’s biopic) where he hugs himself as a little boy. That little kid had beenContinue reading “I want love”

I want it, I got it

I want it. I got it. I want it. I got it. Repeat. New car. New clothes. New shoes. Holiday. Christmas. Birthday. Repeat. Repeat, Repeat. Repeat, Pause……I want it. I got it. I want it. I got it. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat. Pause…. What happens in the pause? And when do we pause? I don’t knowContinue reading “I want it, I got it”