Sipping my life from bottles, Bottling my tears, Drowning your fears. Simply sipping and sipping and slipping then drinking then gulping and….. Up it comes… Too much life trapped in too many bottles, Too many tears stoppered, Not Enough To drown my fears Only sitting and sipping….never thinking Just gulping and drinking..never thinking and UpContinue reading “Mind vomit”
Drink to – what happened to you? Drink to – what if? Drink as consolation for the lies. Drink for me. Drink to you. Drink to be alone. Drink to feel………afraid. Drink to get back to…… Drink as consolation for what we don’t understand Drinking to forget, to let the memories set. Drinking to STOPContinue reading “Excuse me, love. It’s your stop”
I am defeated. Temporarily.
Limits. It’s an ugly word in 2021. Whether we are flying into space, creating a vaccine or running a marathon, we are increasingly taught to ignore our limits. Limits are for losers. True grit. Man up. Brace. Never give up. Keep on smiling. It’s the soundtrack of success. Until it’s not. Recognising our limits isContinue reading “Respect your limits”
We convince ourselves we have real choice when really….we never do. Think back. Look in the mirror. You will see that all that talk of choice is just that – talk. We are led by our emotions every time. We are weak. Even I felt weak Out Here – but that was simply because IContinue reading “I have to drink”
‘Doing the work’ in sobriety doesn’t always improve our present but it does reframe our past. It builds a better future self (not slimmer, richer or with 10k followers no – more aligned to our core values.) Doing the work is futuring. It’s Beyond. Horizons arealways moving in sobriety. But instead of Boris moving theContinue reading “Sobriety is a good electrician”
What are the first steps of sobriety? For me, it’s all about emotional evolution. It’s possible we have emotional gaps from our drinking, our childhood and/or our schooldays. We may have to go back and learn, relearn or unlearn how to manage and express our feelings. When we get sober, it all seems so awkward.Continue reading “361 Sober – first steps”
I’ve lived my life saying ‘I want love’ and I’ve always believed that I needed it. Now. After 2 divorces, am I missing something? And what sort of love do I need? There’s a great scene in Rocket Man (Elton John’s biopic) where he hugs himself as a little boy. That little kid had beenContinue reading “I want love”
I believe the lies I tell myself and that is why you will never win an argument with an addict. Please believe me. I believe them totally….Or is that another lie?
Oh the things I could do with the kiss of the ink! The private conversations I could have in my mind, the passageways and dark, locked rooms I could walk down and the things I could see! How could any connection with anyone ever match the kiss of the ink? The smell of it. TheContinue reading “The kiss of the ink”